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I think what I need to do is actively seek out stuff that I can enjoy, instead of just passively waiting for me to magically enjoy something. I think also what I lack is a willingness to get better. Because everything I don’t enjoy, or anytime I do anything that isn’t worth it, it just makes me want to give up trying. But I think I need to let go of this idea of something being “not worth it”, even though I do believe that some things are genuinely not, I think I need to stop thinking that way. Even if something isn’t worth it I think I should do it anyway, because I won’t know if it is worth it or not until I start and I can’t not start and I can’t just give up. Probably starting is the hardest thing.
I know that none of what I’m thinking here is an original idea, it’s not anything I’ve not been told before. But I’m only properly thinking about it because it’s coming from me. And I’m proud of myself for realising it, even though it’s not very much and I’m probably not going to do anything about it.