Saturday, 8th February

 These last few days it’s, I don’t know, it’s completely different. I’m so sociable. Obviously it’s tiring but it’s really easy. I can just talk and talk about different things. And not feel that anxious. And I actually care. I’m actually interested in stuff and I’m saying interested stuff and everything isn’t so boring??? Like I’m on a winning streak it’s lasted like four days. Obviously there’s the underlying fear that I’m gonna crash and get bad again. But right now, I’m just normal??? I’m me again lol. Also I’ve realised like I’m actually interesting, and I’ve actually got stuff to say. I’m not writing so much because I’m not giving myself time to think. Like think inward. The more I think outward and like actually do stuff, the less shit and in my head I feel. Like it’s just easy, I’m just normally doing stuff instead of it taking loads and loads of effort.