Thursday, 24th apr

 I think it’s a really good sign that the antidepressants working, the fact that in the months before I started taking them, when I had literally hit rock bottom, I would be posting blogs multiple times a day every day and now I’ve barely posted in months. Obviously I’m still journalling a bit but I’m a lot more content, I don’t have a surplus of thoughts weighing down on my head. Coz before I had this blog, and two physical journals that I’d write multiple entries in all o them every single day. Maybe it means I’m getting stupider coz I’m not thinking so much, or maybe I’m just able to not get so distracted by my thoughts, that the only way to get them out my head is to write everything down. Now I can just get things done. Sure I still think, but there’s stuff to do, and people to see, and stuff I’m actually passionate about. I can actually work on stuff, stuff is actually manageable. Appetite and emails and the mess that used to just pile up. It now is something I can actually do, instead of a secondary thing, that I was too busy just surviving to even think about.